TODAY'S NOT THAT DAY

I am not broken, though I feel it sometimes.

I get so confused between my heart and my mind.

The chaos that wages in the flow of my thoughts.

Want to take over and I’m put in a spot.

I practice saying “Thank You,” cause I know that I should.

Some days that’s enough, to help me feel good.

But others, the gratitude doesn’t seem to work.

My vision gets blurry and I feel like a jerk.

I wrestle with never really feeling like I’m great.

But then… sometimes… I don’t know - I’m just in a good state.

When I’m able to let go and trust that God has a plan.

Not to just say it, but believe it… that He understands.

The peace and the clarity I get from that place,

Is unmatchable with God’s mystical grace.

I don’t get it, and for sure some days I will doubt.

But today’s not that day.

I’ve had 2 good days. That’s about 2 in a hundred.

Most mornings I get up and I’m feeling unwanted.

But today’s not that day.

Today, I got up and the sun seemed to glint.

The air filled with hope, way more than a hint.

Sure, there is lot that needs to get done and I see all the need.

But for some reason, today, I’m content just being me.

A lot of other people may be doing more stuff

Making more money - getting more stuff.

But life is way more than material stuff.

Do you like how I keep repeating the amazing word “stuff?”

But, honestly, what do you want in this life?

Cause stuff is just stuff and never stays nice.

No… for me it’s the temporal things that mean more.

They’re life’s biggest joys that open heart’s door.

Things that can live, but also can die.

there are what matter to me…so I try

To be kind

To be thankful

To love my neighbor

To help the needy and hurting

Some days are really, really, really, really hard.

But today’s not that day